xodyyyyyyyy01/11/17 pauli i miss u it was all my fault i never shouldn't have let you go i don't know if you're still thinking of me i do and i'll always will love you forever
-xodyyyyyyyy
ericbrief glimpses of a human between the billowing of a festering capital's veil
jbslipped on a wish slammed into your fist head above water hands between yr knees I’m fine don’t lie we talk don’t talk years away + seasons apart new build locked out you’re gone
jbthe sun burns behind a cotton ball wall it slides further down the sky behind full trees and prismatic apartment buildings I came here because I always do trying to stick with my routine but take away the elements that have made me really sad put a fresh scar on my face and have me hiding further inside this song is called summer blues it found it’s way to my ears on its own this place is the same every day I came to be different today
jbhang in there they said, 4 days later
jbdeteriorating in real time
jbtook a nap because the clouds came back not physically but across my mind I really fucked up this time ate two poptarts and felt sick walked out to get a drink everyone plus one is out at picnic tables under an awning in the sun fixing cars with the hydrant on listened to the same space needle song 4 times makes me think of myself myself at 15 myself at 22 here I am now still being less than that everyone walks on by facetiming behind shades passing through and away grocery bags beach chairs holding hands lead by exhausted dogs 6 packs and cases these two drinks are for me and no I don’t need a tray the sun punishes me the drinks taste like gas but slide down like purified water from a crystalline planet what did you do this summer how about this for a life I’m here every day one way or another looking around for someone who won’t show up so I light another one and wait until I feel sick all over again